You Only Live Twice

Lately, I’ve been living twice: once during the day, and then again at night, when I should be sleeping.
I enjoy a daytime life with all the usual ups and downs. Then at about 4 a.m., I wake up, and my second life begins. My thoughts start to rev up, and it’s hard to gear them back down. If my brain were a car, I’d definitely say it’s idling high.
Most nights I replay a tape of the previous day, and when that one is over, I play one that rehearses how I’m going to do things the next day. Over and over, I find myself repeating and reviewing the minutiae of life, and before I know it, I have to get up and actually live it for real!

You’d think that all that thinking would benefit me somehow. But in truth, there are very few times that I get any real insights during this nighttime activity. I do get the realization that if it keeps up, I’ll need to start going to bed earlier to make up for lost sleep!
I guess that stress is at the root of all my mental meanderings. But I’m not going to wish for less stress! After all, my wish might come true, and then where would I be? Lonely? Jobless? No, better to try and find ways to cope with the life I have. After all, it ain’t all that bad, but I do only need one for now!

Playlist:
1. You Only Live Twice — Nancy Sinatra
2. It’s My Life — The Animals
3. Playground in My Mind — Clint Holmes
4. Too Much to Think About — The B52’s
5. Living In the Past — Jethro Tull
6. Do That To Me One More Time — The Captain and Tennile
7. Nothing New — Ashlee Simpson
8. What’ll I Do — Frank Sinatra
9. The Sidewinder Sleeps Tonight — R.E.M.
10. Life During Wartime — Talking Heads